Starbucks Mothers

In celebration of National Poetry Month I’ll be writing and posting a poem a day for the entirety of April. No haikus. Nothing about wheat, unless fermented. All of the poems can be found here.

More often than not people’s first reaction
to the declaration that I don’t want children
is, “How did you become sterile?”
or, “What’s it like to be sterile?”
or, “I think we should see other people.”

My issue is not with children per se,
but rather the people they turn into,
to carry the weight of that responsibility,
seems unnerving, anti-theoretical,
to my life devoid of responsibility.

Also, the crying. And the late nights.
And the cracked nipples. And the expenses.
And the constant wardrobe changes.
And the lack of reason or rationale.
If I wanted these things, I’d get remarried.

I met a child once. I found it precocious,
but not in a marketable way. It had an odd name
and affection for inexpensive cheeses.
It referred to itself in the first person,
yet couldn’t spell its own name.

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Spaceman

In celebration of National Poetry Month I’ll be writing and posting a poem a day for the entirety of April. No haikus. Nothing about wheat, unless fermented. All of the poems can be found here.

When I was a kid I wanted to be a fire engine.
Parents and teachers and wise vagrants
told me I could be anything I wanted
and so I took them at their word.

I only recently came to terms with the notion
that I will never be a fire engine. Or an airplane.
Or a college graduate. But I have found a loophole,
a flaw in the matrix within the lawless West of uncledom.
I told my sister’s kids, ages three and five,
that I had, in a former life, been a spaceman.

It’s easy to lie to children. I’m smarter than most
of them. And taller. On most days I cry less.
It gives me a false air of authority,
an inflated sense of grandeur, an advantage
in reaching the top shelf, and buying smokes
without being carded.

“I was a spaceman,” I declared to hopeful and unsuspecting ears.
A hush fell over them like I was sunshine. Like I was Santa’s proxy.
Like I was a precocious cartoon Mexican immigrant
with a pet monkey saving dolphins from cunning foxes.
Like I was everything.

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